I am in my apartment!

AND I LOVE IT!

It's not huge. But it's MINE. It's amazing. My roommate and I do not know what to do with ourselves.

Plus i'm off this entire weekend and wednesday through saturday next weekend.

I feel some adventures in the making.

School starts on the 10th. It hasn't been paid for yet....why....because financial aid gets enjoyment out of stressing me out every semester.

But I don't care. It will work itself out. Life is good.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas, to all the lovely friends of mine out there.

I've been working my asssssss off the past few weeks. Now this coming week is dedicated to a painful work schedule and packing. Then I'm off for 6 days- to-

1. Move
2. Get used to my surroundings downtown.
3. Hopefully have a shindig in the apartment
4. Get my tuition paid/figure out where my classes are
5. Chill.

Money is going to be SO tight. But it's worth it.

You said you loved me/You're a liar/

Emo mood this evening.
Today marks the full year of the end of a very long term, dysfunctional relationship. It's not something i usually think about anymore (actually I have discarded and blocked anything I've dealt with that's been negative in the past year), because that was a really dark time. But, he brought it alllllll flooding back to me by sending me a photo of his family and his new girlfriend, by their Christmas tree. Low blow, honey. Low blow.
Part of me thinks, whatever. The other part thinks, that's supposed to be me.
But either way. It happened the way it did for a reason and I'm all the better for it. I learned valuable lessons.

I move out in a week. Have barely packed anything. Scared to death about money and living on my own.
I start at USC on the 10th. My class schedule is all mornings, i'm done by 12:30 everyday. I declared my double major. Scared to death of the big school where i barely know anyone. A friend of mine from Lowes will be in one of my MWF classes, because he is the same major as me. He's promised me he'd sit with me.....makes it a little less scary.

I'm stuck in a weird transistion. Finally getting out on my own, but I still really feel like a little kid sometimes.

I'm intimidated by the young man i'm talking too. He's gorgeous and very wealthy. I don't understand why he's talking to me at all. I'm average in every way. I guess that's why i don't trust him.....no guy like that even bothers with a girl like me. I can't even get an average guy to stick around, much less someone like that. So it scares me.

I'm just in a bad mood.



And he did tell me that he loved me------and he was such a liar. ("You never, ever, ever did, baby----But, darlin'.....I'd still catch a grenade for ya")

Grenade- Bruno Mars.

Sicklysick.

I have bronchitis....AGAIN. had to call out of work one day this week with a fever, and i can't go clean my houses because i clean for the elderly......definitly not good for them if i'm around.
Money is so tight right now though, so it's not a good time to be sick.

MOVE IN DAY IS SOOOO SOON! TWO WEEKS! I'm so excited!

Life has been really enjoyable lately. I'm still dealing with my trust issues of everyone, but I think i'll always deal with that.

I'm not sure what to do with mr. hottness. I haven't talked to him in a few days, as i don't know how to assess the situation. I don't trust men these days. They don't want to be straight up and real...and I don't have time for imaturity. I certainly don't have time to go chasing them around trying to figure them out and be the doormat.
I am also learning that Kharma is a HUGE bitch.....and it will bite those who deserve it RIGHT in the ass. It's most excellent.

My song list as of late-

My Head- May Day Parade
Tik Tok- Woe Is Me
Grenade- Bruno Mars
Pardon Me- Incubus.

"My Future's So Bright/I Gotta Wear Shades"

So life is pretty damn amazing right now. I LOVE my new job so much. I enjoy going in everyday. Right now it is insane because of the holiday season, but I love it any way.
I'm loving my friends at work. We all go out all the time, and it's great to have fit with my work family so quickly.

Moving into my apartment in 3 weeks. I'm excited. My roommate (Well soon to be roommate) is AMAZING. I love her to death. We get along excellently. The apartment decor is coming along amazingly as well. It's...just really ballin'.

I got my schedule for USC for spring semester. I'm officially a double major in Criminology and Abnormal Psychology. I have 4 classes, but I'm done between 11am and 12pm everyday. Which means, I can work full time still. (Very excellent, now that I will have a rent payment). I'm taking Criminal Law, Criminal Courts, Developmental Psychology and a Geography Lab. I have to take the lab, it's the final general science class that I need. Next semester will be Abnormal Psychology in Children, Italian 101, some random philosophy logics class (i need for my criminology degree), and a course on Serial Killers. Overall, i'm f'ing EXCITED.

Still talking to this guy friend. I'm giving him a chance. I'm starting to like him alot. He's very independent and mature. He's straight up and speaks his mind. But what I like best is, he doesn't have a different personality with different friends. He just, is who he is....and he doesn't change it. I like that. We'll see what happens.

I'm just really excited about life right now. I've learned to let the crap of the past go and laugh it off. People suck, so what? It's a life lesson.

Apartment Tour, New Boy, Sushi, Nat. Geo Wild

The past few days have been awesome. Work is AMAZING, I love it so much. My roomie and I went for the final tour of our soon to be apartment. I AM SO F-ING EXCITEDDDDDDDDD! It's such a nice place! We're planning a big get together once we're moved in, before school starts back.

Last night I went out for girls night to the Fuji Cafe and ate some AWESOME sushi.
Sweet Potato Roll, Shrimp/Asparagus Roll, Spicy Tuna Roll.........all excellent. I didn't care for the Eel roll though.
Sushi is basically my new favorite.

I was thinking that the boy from my old job at Lowes was pulling a prank on me, or being an ass. But he's talked to me on his own everyday this week. He still wants to hang out. So I think I'm going to give him a chance, and be positive about it. He's really attractive and ridiculously nice. But very down to earth. Very sarcastic, like me. ha.

I'm also loving the new National Geographic Wild channel. I'm such a dork and have spent 3 nights in a row watching documentaries on there. Hippos, Jellyfish, Snakes....love ittttt.

Everything is going really smoothly, minus my last lab grade in Astronomy....but oh well, the class is almost over. THANK GOD. Oh and minus the fact that mom's doberman ate a blanket the other night and had to go to the E.R. vet. But he's ok now.

Anyway, off to work I go. Come see me at Bed, Bath and Beyond!

Yes I Would Die For You Baby/But You Wouldn't Do The Same.

This is one of my favorite songs right now-

Grenade- Bruno Mars (I'm diggin' me some Bruno Mars these days)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LaG1hBKgDfo

This song, lyrically, I just love. Represents what love should be and how people take advantage of it and ruin it, as silly and poppy as it is.

A...boy? UGH! NO!

So of course I promised that I wouldn't bother with any guys for awhile, even if it was just plain, simple, platonic friendship (Cause that always seems to go to hell in a hand basket with me).
And it's gone well for awhile, but now it's NOT going well at all. I went to a big bonfire with all my friends from Lowes last night, because i hadn't seen any of them since I quit a few weeks ago.
And a very attractive young man, name not to be disclosed here, who i worked with my entire 10 months there showed up.
Anyway, we hung out and chatted....and when i got home from the get together, he facedbooked me and asked if i'd like to hang out again. Apparently, he enjoys the fact that I'm intelligent and strong willed.

I'm not sure what to do. He's an attractive guy (VERY attractive, RIDICULOUSLY....and he needs a sorority girl...not a girl like me), business major at USC, loves football, super nice......can't complain. But, at the same time.....he worked with me for 10 months and we didn't talk very much while I was working there. So, he comes out of nowhere last night and suddenly says he'd like to take me to dinner? Hmm....and he started just complimenting in all these different ways.

I've been there, done that. Generally......that crap is lies. Guys tell you that you're beautiful and smart.........They don't mean it.
So i don't want to blow him off and be a HUGE jerk.....but at the same time, is he trustworthy? Or is he just another 20-something, USC playa whose bored and in need of a little amusement?


I'm not sure where i stand with all of it.


So stay tuned...........and pray that I don't get mixed up in another "Bullshit with a Boy" saga. Because I'm sick of those.

Pardon Me/While I Burst/Into Flames.

I'm trying to get it together, because I have to be to work in less than two hours. But I really don't have a handle on my emotions or my temper right now.

One of our dogs apparently ate a large plastic toy while no one was home. Now he's very ill, and without surgury, he will die. Unless the vet's office will allow my parents to make payments on the bill, they can't afford it. So currently, mom is laying in the middle of the floor sobbing over the dog. My dad has no idea how to deal with this, or most any of my mom's issues.
I want my dog to be ok, but currently the house is so full of drama that I can't even focus.

My sister is behaving like the spoiled brat she's been all summer long. Last night, both my mom and my sister told me they can't wait for me to be out of the house, because i'm in their way.
They don't have any respect for me, or the constant running that I do for them. I work 2 jobs and go to school, and they could care less that I use all of my free time for their needs. They don't give me any gas money, or any money to pay me back when I pick up their groceries or whatever.

My parents marriage is in shambles. All they do is fight, and it's effecting the entire house. Mom isn't paying the bills like she is supposed too, so bill collectors are calling non-stop. The house stays in a mess, because I can't keep up with all of it myself.


There is just so much going on and I can't deal with it, because I'm trying to work and make good grades (which is hard to do, when the house is like a violent zoo all the time) and start my own life.
I feel like i'm failing my family, and there isn't anyone around to listen.

Finally tried sushi.

I gotta say, Life is treating me pretty darn decent these days. My new job is AMAZING, i love it. They gave me the Sales Lead position in the Bedding department. Plus, I'm loving working in Harbison. All the hustle and bustle.

I got my acceptance letter from USC. Right now I'm still waiting on the Immunization Records department to update my file so I can register for Orientation and Advisement. It's stressing me out a tiny bit because Orientation is in two and a half weeks, and I'm not registered yet.

I signed the lease on my apartment last week as well. So excited, we move in officially in less than 8 weeks. Seems like a long way, but it's really not. I have barely started sorting through all my stuff.

Halloween was loads of fun. My roommate and i went downtown Saturday night. I went as a referee, surprisingly I was the only Referee downtown. I saw 27 Little Red Riding Hoods, Dorothy's, Audrey Hepburns etc....but no ref's. So that was pretty cool. We had a few nerve testing moments walking around by ourselves, cause some guys were overly drunk and following us. But it was ok. Although my roommate wants us to get a larger group next time, cause it was sorta tense for a bit.
Actually, we ended up at the Ale House. Somehow, I always end up at The Ale House. I have no idea why. But they have good margaritas and good food, so suits me just fine.

We went to Tsunamis to eat..............holy crap, sushi is my new favorite food. I tried three different kinds, and I liked all of it. Although, I liked the Godzilla Roll best. It was pretty fantabulous. (yes, I said fantabulous)

Overall, life is coming together. Had a really good family dinner last night, hadn't had one of those in forever. It was good to spend time with the whole family for a while.


So, God is awesome. I'm happy (for the most part, haha). Now it's time to go to work.

Peace out.

The Streets of Philadelphia

One of these days I'm actually going to get up to Philly and D.C. and tour it. I've always wanted to head up that way, but never had the opportunity.
I watched the movie, "Philadelphia", the other night. Such a good movie. I had to go listen to my sountrack for it. Which includes, "Streets of Philadelphia".....so emo, but so good. I don't even like Bruce Springsteen either.

I've been training for the past wto days at Bed, Bath and Beyond. It's been good, but really weird. I'm "The new girl" again, which I hate! haha. Plus, it's just weird to be around all new people and new managers. I wish I wouldn't have had to leave Lowes, but the merchandise and location at/of BBB is much better.

I'm signing my lease this week. Pretty excited about that. Plus I am off for Halloween, which means I may get to go do something exciting. Plus, my aunt let me borrow her "Sexy Referee" costume. ha...ha...ha. Oy. lol

I'm seriously disappointed in people this week. The amount of gossiping and b.s. that people participate in disgusts me. I am debating just changing my phone number, even if i have to pay a fee. People text me things I don't want to know about. Then I have to deal with it and stick up for the one/others they are gossiping about.............and why do I even do that? What's the point? It's like I have to try and defend someone's reputation whether they deserve it or not, and I know damn well they aren't going to stick up for me. Yet I do it anyway.
My advice? Quit gossiping about crap you don't know anything about! And that's just my two cents.
Life's a S.B.- Social Bitch.

I found out why I never heard from USC. My letter was lost in the mail. I get a new one this week and register for classes in the next two weeks, provided I've been accepted. Which I think i was, because the guy on the phone said to go ahead and start changing my income status on my FAFSA.
Wish me luck on that.

Also, people who want to make donations for Thanksgiving for Harvest Hope. Get with me ASAP. We need to plan out Christmas stuff as well.
Due to the Cholera outbreak in Haiti, we've decided to branch out and send donations in that direction. But we need to get the fine print/details worked out now. I don't like last minute, if at all possible.

Peace out-

TWEEZERS ARE DANGEROUS!

So today, as i was getting ready to go meet some friends for a girl's lunch/shopping day.......i decided it was time to re-pluck some eyebrows. (Which i have to do often due to my hormonal problem).

So mom bought these new tweezer, fancy ones (Apparently, they sell fancy tweezers). This particular pair has a really pointy tips at the end. So I am taking my time (pluck the wrong eyebrow, and you're totally screwed), when the tweezers slip from my hand. Rather than fall to the ground, they bounce off my nose and the pointy part hits me right in my right eye. It was....needless to say.....excruciating. I grabbed my eye and almost passed out. I didn't think eyes felt pain like that. My dad came into the bathroom and was like "Why in the hell are you laying on the bathroom floor?".
My eye isn't red or swollen, but everytime I blink it hurts. Also, even with my glasses on, the right eye has cloudy vision. I hope it's ok by tomorrow. I cannot afford a trip to the eye doctor right now.

So....yes that was a shallow story about my shallow, cosmetic grooming.
BUT. I may just have to have a unibrow from now on, because my eye is killing me.



On the positive end though-

1. My newlywed/pregnant friend is doing really well, (saw her today)

2. I am still REALLY loving my roommate....and she isn't running away from me yet, even after meeting my grandparents and uncle. Holy crap world, I may have a legitimate friend on my hands! Jeez! lol

3. A friend from work gave me an AMAZING black book shelf for the living room. She is so kind.

4. I paid my LAST payment for this semester to midlands tech today. I AM FREEEEEEEE.

5. Getting things organized to start collected for Harvest Hope and Christmas Angels programs. Help us out, guys!


Negatives-

1. MY EYE HURTS

2. Still trying to avoid the creeper that I'm dealing with from work. It's getting harder to do.



And the quote of the day, before saying good night-


"God is great, Beer Is Good and People Are Crazy"


G'nite!

EVERYBODY START JUMPIN!

The past few days have been BUSY. I worked a ton this week, homework was nuts for my lab, plus cleaned three houses in one day, plus walked out on my job at Lowes and am not working out my notice (long story), etc etc etc. I start at Bed, Bath and Beyond in less than a week.

Today I went to the fair with my roommate. Was epic fun, and money went farther because our tickets and parking were free. Both of us wished slightly for 2 cute boys, butcha can't always get watcha want. Lol. We rode a few rides, one of them was insane and I screamed and laughed so hard that I cried. I do that on rides....it's an adrenaline thing. Part of it is fear when I get snatched around in my seat, the other part is sheer joy. Anyway, she is the exact same way as me and the boys in the seats next to us kept laughing at us.
Waiting in line for one of the rides, a vendor started blasting sandstorm and yelled- "ALL THE USC STUDENTS START JUMPIINNNNG"......and we did and it was hilarious.
Then we went and got margaritas....and it was excellent.

My family is being so helpful with the whole moving thing. My grandfather surprised me today with a set of NICE pots and pans. I'm talking, Food Network worthy pots and pans. Because he knows I like to cook. I was just going to go dig through the Salvation Army. So i was excited.
(I think Lauren and I are going to invest in shot glasses that look like ice cicles from B.B.B. when i start work next week though).

I got an unexpected pension check from my old receptionist job. 100 bucks! Totally put that in savings today. Another blessing, for sure.

I'm going to get Lauren to show me around the whole campus sometime soon. Because I'm not sure about any of my buildings.
We explored the are buy our apartment complex tonight. There is some COOL stuff down by it. Even a sushi bar....which i still need to try. So this place, blus Blue in the Vista has been added to our list.

This guy I used to work with has been texting me non stop. He keeps asking me to go out and such. My friends are like, "Goooooo". But .....honestly, It feels like he's trying to lure me to his house. Literally, he keeps asking me to come to his house late in the evening to "watch movies". And honestly, it just doesn't sit well with me. I don't really know him, and he's just a weird guy. I don't (or I mean didn't) mind talk to him at work. But anything beyond that makes me very uneasy......and after watching WAY to many Criminal Minds episodes......I think i'll follow my 6th sense.

I'm looking forward to next football season for sure. I know that Lauren and I are going to go to probably all the home games if we can work around our work schedule at B.B.B.


anyway, good night world! It's time for some sleep after wandering around downtown/fair all day.

Pardon Me/While I Burst/Into Flames.

So I guess I owe the world an apology. I am sorry that I am such a huge pain in the ass. I'm sorry that I'm ugly. I'm sorry that I'm stubborn and opinionated. I'm sorry that I know what I want in life. I'm sorry I don't settle for just any guy or any friends. I'm sorry that I don't mesh with everything to "Fit in" and to be accepted by the standard, stereotypical social masses (Who by the way, won't be apart of your life 5 years from now, and don't care about you). I'm sorry that I don't allow people to treat me like shit anymore, even if it requires being mean about it. I'm sorry if I stand up for what I believe in. I'm sorry that i'm bizarre, weird, flakey, quirky, eccentric....whatever.
I am sorry that I accept me and all of my flaws (physically and mentally) to the fullest extent, because that's how God made me and I'm damn proud of it. I'm sorry that I am not worth anyone's time.

I guess it was ok for me to be when I was handing out money and not asking for it to be paid back, or running people places because they didn't have a car, or answering the phone at 3am to help them through problems, or being loyal to the very end to even the most epic of assholes.
I guess it's ok for everyone else to act like shit, but I'm not allowed to call you out on it.

I am sorry that I go above and beyond what I should to take care of people when they ask me for help, and never ask for anything in return. I'm sorry that i even bother trying to be a friend.
I'm sorry that I even care.

I'm sorry that the world is so full of lying, selfish people that I have to feel this angry on the inside because of it.

"A decade ago/ I never thought I would be at twenty three/
On the verge of spontaneous combustion/woe is me
But I guess that it comes with the territory/An ominous landscape of never ending calamity/
I need you to hear, I need you to see/
That I have had all I can take/
And exploding seems like a definite possibility to me/

So pardon me while I burst into flames/
I've had enough of the world and it's people's mindless games/
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame/
Pardon me, pardon me/
I'll never be the same"

Pardon Me- Incubus

New Job.

So today I went to the Bed, Bath and Beyond where my roommate (well, soon to be roommate) works. We were going to look around and figure out decor for the apartment. I talked to the store manager and told him my skills, and he hired me on the spot to come work there.
SO. I put my 2 week notice in at Lowes and as of October 25th, I will be a C.S.A. over at the Harbison Bed Bath and Beyond.
Great hours, good pay, AMAZING discount (20% off all merchandise, including all clearance. Plus we can use as many coupons as we want on a transaction. Plus we get up to 50% off plus as many coupons as we want during Christmas sales). Between myself and my roommate, our apartment will look amazing.

I was really starting to get unhappy at Lowes. Especially with management changes and attitudes of the people around me. My store manager treats all the employees like we are nothing but replaceable bodies. So this was my chance to move into something that will make me happier, it will also be around merchandise that I'm more familar with. An unexpected positive.

In the past month I've gotten an apartment and a new job. School is going to be totally different from Midlands Tech starting in January. It's all really awesome and I'm really excited. God is awesome.

Funny little side story- I wore a dress and heels today because I had a meeting to go to, and because I knew i was taking the chance of maybe talking to the manager at BBB........so i walked into work today in the dress and heels- Everyone freaked. They are used to seeing me in jeans, old shirts and sneakers with my hair up in a bun.
They were like, "OH MY GOSH DID SOMEONE DIE? WHY ARE YOU DRESSED UP LIKE THAT?".
One of my guy friends approchached me from behind and thought I was a customer until i turned around.
Quite hilarious....his words were...."Damn, I didn't realize you had a body like that".
Then it got totally awkward and I felt very uncomfortable, so I put my work clothes on and shoved the dress in my locker. lol.
Everyone acts like I'm a total sloth/tomboy. So silly. I love to go out and i love to look dressy. I AM A GIRL, PEOPLE! I have all the parts for pete sakes.

Anyway. So....interesting day, but in a good way. It's going to be weird working in Harbison. I'm not used to the traffic and the hussle. PLUS living downtown?! Wow....country girl from the backwoods is going city.

The more I get to know my roommate, the more awesome she becomes. I am SO thankful to have been matched with someone that I have this much in common with.



---- Songs to match my current mood-

"Right Now"- Ryan Star

"I Like To Dance"- Hot Chelle Rae

"Arch Drive Goodbye"- Eve 6

"Here's To The Night" Eve 6

"I hope you choke/On the promises you broke"

Song of the day-

"Choke" by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U5bmbeS1jYM&feature=related


Look into my eyes/I am the one who you despise/
Cause I exposed your lies/
And it's my turn to watch you burn (to watch you burn)/
I hope you choke/
On the messages that you wrote/
Telling me that you will be here 'til the end/
You'll never see/
A different side to me/
A side that you just did not ever understand/
Sing it like last time/
With every line/
Ends with a rhyme/
You'll get great reviews/
But I refuse to be reused (to be reused)/
I hope you choke/On the promises you broke/
Telling me that you would always be my friend/
You'll never see/A different side to me/
A side that you just did not ever understand/
I hope you choke (on the messages you wrote)/
I hope you choke (on the promises you broke)/
I know you'll choke (on the messages you wrote)/I
know you'll choke (I hope you'll choke)

Photos

50 things I bet you didn't know about me List.

(people still do these and tag me in them....and I've done all my homework for the week....so why not!)

1. When I was born they weighed me in at 10 lbs. But it was a messed up weigh-in, I was actually a 12lb baby. And my mother birthed me naturally with no pain meds.

2. I've broken my nose....by falling into a brick wall.

3. I won the state title for South Carolina 4-H public speaking, 5 years in a row and declined the trip to D.C. to compete in Nationals. I was also the head of the 4-H Student Advisory Council for my two local counties....

4. I cannot eat Apple Jacks cereal, I break out in a rash when I do.

5. I don't like any sort of white dressings or sauces. Ranch, mayonaise, tartar sauce...etc

6. I secretly really love The Pussycat Dolls.

7. The french fried onions that you put on casseroles....i enjoy right out of the can.

8. The movie "Remember the Titans"....makes me cry. I don't know why.

9. I think the lead singer for 12 Stones....is a fox.

10. I'm planning to get 3 tattoos.....but none of them will be visible because I don't want to bug my parents.

11. I like to mix up grapes, walnuts and whipped ream in a bowl and eat it...cause it's delicious

12. Even though i'm a big, goofy kid.....I auditioned and received a full scholarship to dance for a local company for jazz, ballet and lyrical.....and i was actually pretty good. Myself and some of my fellow classmates won the company a few 1st places in our day.

13. I know the exact location and the exact look of my wedding...whenever that happens.

14. During my time as a dancer, particularly during the awkward time of being in full blown puberty, one of my best guy friends at the time (i was 14) and i kissed each other backstage while wating for our count to go on stage. That still makes me laugh when i think about it....we thought we were being sooooo bad ass.

15. People think I'm really shy......but more or less, i'm just quiet until i get used to the situation.....then I'm overly opinionated and annoying.

16. I very much love clubs and club dancing. ....as long as it's not with strangers.

17. I love being tall. I think being short would suck.

18. If I could.....all I would ever consume is pasta and ice cream.

19. I mix Nutella into my coffee.

20. I decided because I live in the boonies to walk outside in a shirt and underwear one morning to get the mail....and of course the boy across the trees was out riding his bike. I learned a valuable lesson that day...

21. I am terrified of the dark.

22. I think I have pyromaniac tendencies....I love to strike matches, I love to burn multiple candles, i love fireworks, bonfires....I love anything to do with fire.

23. I attemped to commit suicide in highschool. My family doesn't know, and will never know. They are the reason I didn't do it. To this day, I regret ever even considering it.

24. All of my old friends from highschool call me Bee. Somehow, it ended up...now all my work friends call me that as well. My grandfather has always called me Miss Bee. So i guess i'm stuck with the ridiculous nickname.

25. I get a little pissy when people eat my candy.

26. I still love the fact that I get a stocking every Christmas, even though I'm to old for it.

27. I will beat the hell out of anyone who insults my family.....and won't think twice.

28. If I could....I would get my degree in sports journalism.....I'd LOVE to work or write for EPSN.

29. I hate my middle name with a passion. It's so plain. Nicole. and to think, my family was going to call me Niki when i was born. Thank God for small miracles.

30. It irritates me when people think my name is short for Brooklyn. IT ISN'T!!!!

31. One of my most favorite things, is that peaceful moment when the sun is going down on the beach and you're just relaxing in the sand. I think it's the greatest thing ever.

32. I have 2 cousins with my same birthday. I'm just a heck of alot older than they are.

33. I like tomato on my grilled cheese sandwiches

34. I love nature trails.

35. my dream car is a '10 Mercury Mariner Hybrid.....anyone have 30 grand for me to buy one?

36. I hate that i'm so freckly.

37. I go behind my dept. manager and finish all the paperwork he forgets about, so he doesn't get into trouble. (they don't know that i know how to do it)

38. I can change my own oil in my car. I also know how to change my tire...my dad just does it for me anyway.

39. I kinda love to vacuum.

40. I like fruity pebbles better than cocoa pebbles.

41. Criminal Minds....is the best show ever.

42. I secretly watch crappy reality tv like Dog the Bounty Hunter....when I'm really bored.

43. I think Usher's "Dj's Got Us Falling In Love Again" song....is so much fun. (Don't judge me...)

44. I played a Toucan in a play when i was 10........and a Bon Bon in a performance of The Nutcracker when i was 11. SO EMBARRASSING.

45. I still miss my basset hound, Sadie. Best dog ever.

46. When I say something, I really mean it. I do not lie. I am easily guilted by my conscience.

47. I am loyal until the very end....even when the person doesn't deserve my loyalty

48. Even though I am not Catholic anymore (atleast not by my standards or opinions), I still do the Sign of the Cross after I take Communion.....out of habit, and because I feel like I'm being disrespectful if I don't.

49. I dread turning 30 haha

50. No matter what happens in life, I will never allow anything or anyone to come between myself and my relationship with God.

Song list (for chrissy)

MUSIC LIST! For one of my only friends sticking by me lately- Miss Chrissy Taratuta.

(Look up Villanova on myspace or facebook and listen to all of their stuff....it's a local band, but they are AMAZING. I've seen them live etc. My favorite lately.
Make Noise, Straight to the Bottom and The Fall are 3 of their best songs.

SONGS THAT WILL CRACK YOU UP-
"Show Me Yo' Bootyhole"- Saosin (this song made me keel over and die..its crude though. very crude)
"Hollaback Boy"- Cobra Starship
"Kiss me, I'm Shitfaced"- Dropkick Murphys (Irish...and I love it. Should be a theme song for downtown Columbia)


Rock Songs-
A Day To Remember - Check these out
"If Looks Could Kill"
"Your Way With Words Is Through Silence"
"Casablanca Sucked Anyways"
(just check out all of their stuff, but i felt like these were perfect for right now)
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Stupid Kid- Alkaline Trio (this needs to be our theme song for life lol)
Blood on my Hands- The Used
Stop This Song (Lovesick Melody)- Paramore
The Feel Good Drag- Anberlin
Naive Orleans- Anberlin
There Is No Mathmatics To Love and Loss- Anberlin
Lie To Me- 12 stones (this one is excellent lyrically)
Give Up The Grudge- Gob
Kiss Me- New Found Glory
Beat Your Heart Out- The Distillers
Catalyst- Linkin Park
How You Love Me Now- Hey Monday
So Help Me God- Fireflight
Liar- Fireflight
Supernatural- Flyleaf

Emo Songs-
Hello World- Lady Antebellum
One Day- O.A.R.
Burn It Down- Alter Bridge
You're Not Alone- Saosin
18th Floor Balcony- Blue October
Stripped- Shiny Toy Guns
Major Tom (coming home)- Shiny Toy Guns
Sally's Song- Amy Lee

Go and Danceeeeeeeee songs-
Krazy (with Lil Jon)- Pitbull
Shake (Pitbull)- Ying Yang Twins
Impacto- Daddy Yankee
Gasolina- Daddy Yankee (all their stuff is good....and spanish. LOL)
Take it Off- Kesha

Matthew 22:37-39

Something people need to be reminded of.



Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' – Matthew 22:37-39

Corinthians 12:9-10

"And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness. Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weakness, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weakness, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake, for when I am weak, then I am strong." -

2 Corinthians 12:9-10


Oddly, after my last post.....a few hours later, my friend Amy sent me this passage out of the blue.



God works in mysterious ways. He always knows when to put it back in perspective.